"I go into 2011 with hope and determination to make good with whats available because even the countries leaders are telling us its going to be a shit year."
Looking back at 2011, those of you who know me well may be surprised to know that describing 2011 as terrible year is not what i feel. It's best described as the most contradictive year of my life.
Two major sources of confidence, inspiration and comfort left my world during 2011 causing me extreme tides of reflection and emotional distress. Reevaluating things i believed about the world, friends and life. Heavy stuff.
But in the same year i achieved many goals, i proved peers to be wrong and layer down some new foundations. I met new friends and strengthened some old ones.
And as cheesy as this will sound from a guy brought up on Spielberg films, as the story of one friend ended, a new story was born in that of my Nephew.
So anyway here is my resolutions written this time last year…
1. Look out for technologies that will allow me to self publish comics this year.
2. Create a steampunk computer game
3. simple.. make some money.
4. Balance that second life and use what i recently learnt to promote and reap glory!
5. Manage my time better to allow me to learn to Cook and eat better.
6. Continue to express my appreciation to all those who have been understanding and cared for me.
7. Publish a book
8. Visit the ones i love more.
9. Help parents be more responsible with resources.
10. Do more excersise and be less sick.
So how did i do?
1. And i still have not published any new comics. I did find some interesting tech though. An iPad app that constructed a comic iBook Epub with stupid amounts of ease. I had looked into the cost of buying ISBN numbers in the UK to self publish on the iBook store. But then Apple iOS 5 came out with the NewStand making it much easier to read and store and buy magazines so I'm still in limbo over that. Resolution met? not really
2. Originally this was to be a side scrolling shooter-up game, but that quickly got placed on the back burner. By the end of the year though in Second Life i had created the Dark Aether falls clue hung and bug zapping steampunk game, and while it was not accesable to all my friends or the masses it's still a steampunk game and helped with my virtual world Tier payments. Resolution met? yup
3. I haven't checked yet but i think i made more money than the previous year. It has been an odd year as i move away from the more traditional web and print design jobs to the virtual content design market. One i hope will be a successful move during this economic climate. I find the world of freelance design a dreadful place where clients want work cheaper and faster than ever before due to the pressure to cut costs. It's got to a point where i've glimpsed a possible future where i create what i want and sell it to those who really want it and what artist wouldn't want that? Resolution met? Yup
4. Balance Second Life with my real life? Hardly, in fact i became even more engrossed in the virtual world. More and more effort and ideas went into the Second Life platform in 2011. Maybe it was due to what happened in the real world that pushed me to be more inworld (logged into virtual worlds). I wasn't just escaping by playing games and socialising, i was burying myself in work and in a twist of fortune this lead me to becoming more experienced in building, scripting and 3D modelling. Resolution met? Kind of
5. I sort of managed my time better but learn to cook, resounding NO. Routines help the days move more fluidly, wake up, breakfast, midmorning coffee, lunch, afternoon tea, then tea, then supper then bedtime. Repeat. I'm pretty much a Hobbit now, but having a structure to the day really helps keep time focused. Resolution met? half of it.
6. There were moments where i disappeared for a while into my virtual world of work, but would snap out get on a train and head to the city because of a simple text message at 1am to meet up next day. I made a point of that, especially after jays death. In part because the question would go through my mid, 'what if you ignore?'. I would have liked to hung out more with my friends, but it was a tough year for many of us, yet the moments we did meet up were good and valuable moments we all needed at the time. Resolution met? maybe
7. Publish a book? Resolution met? nope not yet
8. I visited jason for the last time back in march 2011 for his 24th birthday. We watched DVD's and had a drink or two. Next day i had to leave. At the door i considered giving him a hug goodbye, but 2 workmen arrived to do some work on the house so in the confusion i did not get the chance. We said goodbye and that was the last i saw him alive. On the train home i texted him that next time i visit we need to go out and have lunch somewhere because he's a grown man with a girlfriend and we should really start hanging out as adults instead of teenage kids. He replied with "sounds like a plan mate xx". Resolution met? Im reluctant to blame Jay for any of the pain this year but i'll blame him for this resolution not being met.
9. My worst enemy is local news,. The amount off biased, uninformative, low quality reporting that comes out of the presenters of itv west country news is shocking sometimes. It does not take much for my dad to be convinced of anything with his old world views. I failed to convince my parents to get on the solar panel scheme. Failed to get them to invest in new energy saving heating system (current one is broke). I tried to get hands on a electricity monitor to give decent analysis of whats using up electricity. Instead they just moan about how everything is costing more, bloody does my head in! Resolution met? NO
10. Well i was doing excersise at the start of the year, I'm not quite sure when that stopped. Probably when i had my first health scare. I had a crazy episode where i had extreme memory loss which i only noticed when reading twitter and finding i had been having a conversation about not remembering tweets i had posted. I then got pain in my chest and dizzy spells so went to visit my GP who told me i had indigestion and that i probably was suffering from stress. Right ok. Later in the year i then developed a rather strong allergic reaction to something which lasted three weeks. I think i only got a cold virus once, which was last week. Resolution met? Kind of.
So goodbye 2011, the year beset with contradictions, the worst of times the best of times, like building foundations in a hurricane. But with them built I'm strangely excited to crack on with 2012 even though possible recession is looming and the Olympics threaten to bore the shit out of me.
2012 Resolutions are….
1. Finally Publish a book or magazine or comic.
2. Build upon the successes of 2011.
3. Make more money than last year.
4. Make it possible for my family to understand and appreciate the work I'm now doing in virtual worlds.
5. Celebrate jays life and share my memories of him with the world.
6. Be the best Uncle ever.
7. Publish or print a concept book with my friend Rob.
8. Be more steampunk.
9. Build on the confidence that i can achieve my dreams.
10. Find balance between work and play, business and community.
Heres to 2012, find out next year how well i did :)